Saturday, September 29, 2012
As tears fall...
As tears fall, God knows the reasons
As tears fall, burdens are lifted
As tears fall, the broken are mended
As tears fall, the Prodigals come Home
As tears fall, open wounds become a scar, just a reminder of what they once were.
As tears fall, the Orphan's remember, they were never completely abandoned, they'd always had a Heavenly Father who longed to fill the emptiness in their heart, who never would rejected them, He longed to be the Father they brought all their cares too, He longed for them to accept Him......as tears fall.
As tears fall only God can read the meaning, hear the unspoken words of our hearts, can understand the language of falling tear.
As tears fall, some turn and walk away leaving Life's greatest decision for "some other day"
As tears fall, some can't remember exactly when it was they started losing their way or how they got to where they are today
As tears fall, all of Heaven rejoyced
As tears fall, all of Heaven stood by, all of Hell fought, the Savior reached with Love, but the demons of the past were the chains that held them back
All of these, and many more, battles won, battles lost, but the war for souls still goes on.....I pray to God that our tears fall.
Define a "Miracle"
This week I have seen miracles happen!
A Miracle is something that only God can preform, it is those things that man can not do.
It maybe, you don't consider the mending of broken hearts, God dealing with those that have been lost for so long that their hearts and lives are broken, the lost souls being saved, hungry hearts being filled with the Holy Ghost, the oppressed being freed, and the broken, hurting, dismembered church of Christ coming together in Unity to be the working BODY of Christ, a "MIRACLE".....I definitely do believe, those are miracles. I can't wait to see not only what today holds, but what 10th St Church will be when God has finished His work, but I already know what I will call it, A Miracle.
A Miracle is something that only God can preform, it is those things that man can not do.
It maybe, you don't consider the mending of broken hearts, God dealing with those that have been lost for so long that their hearts and lives are broken, the lost souls being saved, hungry hearts being filled with the Holy Ghost, the oppressed being freed, and the broken, hurting, dismembered church of Christ coming together in Unity to be the working BODY of Christ, a "MIRACLE".....I definitely do believe, those are miracles. I can't wait to see not only what today holds, but what 10th St Church will be when God has finished His work, but I already know what I will call it, A Miracle.
Friday, August 17, 2012
The language of God
I have those times, as we all do, when really, there are no words to say that can describe the pain of our heart, when there are no prayers you can pray that will ease the burden you bear. Yet, those are the times I know God is closest to me......He is listening to my heart without me having to say a word, He is catching my tears and seeing beyond what human eye can see. There are even times, I have asked, Oh God where are you, are you here with me now? Do you see what is going on in my life? Do you see how evil this world has become? Man, You created in Your own image, do You see how wicked and perverse he has become?
I may not "feel" He is with me but, I "KNOW" He is with me. I can't trust my feelings, my mood and my emotions, after all they change like the weather....sometimes a little more quickly than others....
http://youtu.be/ZWZI9KAUWak
I can't trust in what I see, I can't hope in the world around me, I can't place my faith in my emotions, My own relationship with Christ can not depend on the actions and lives of those around me.
Without Christ, I can't cope with the evil that surrounds me. I am one who won't read the news because, it leaves me feeling sick to my stomach....burdened. I can't attend a school event without my heart breaking, I look around the gym, more than one or two my heart and my eyes will be drawn to and I feel my eyes start tearing up and while they may never know, I pray for them. . There may never be another person in their life who loves them enough to do so. If I am alone I cry on the way home, and I hug my own kids a little tighter, and I pray that God protects them from the evil that surrounds them, that his angels watch over them when they are away from me.
There are different gifts God gives us, one I ask Him for is wisdom, discernment that in my heart I will know, the evil, the hypocrite, those that aren't trustworthy long before I am given a reason for it.
In the day we live, the church is the best place for Satan to hide. Then from the inside he can destroy us. What wounds us more? When we are hurt by a stranger, or when we are betrayed by a friend, brother/sister in Christ, that we trusted. The sad thing is that we are so quick to blame God in our hurt, to become bitter, to even hate God and anybody associated with Christ. Some never see that behind every bad church related experience, Satan was working. At times even true well meaning Christians become Satan's pawn, and be petty, rude, hateful, and just plain wrong, not only by man's standard but by God's standard. God's standard is very clear in
1 Corinthians 13 (if you want to read)
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20corinthians%2013&version=KJV
Then there are those that are wolves among us, dressed in sheep clothing, even Christ had one He loved to betray Him
Mark 14:18
And as they sat and did eat, Jesus said, Verily I say unto you, One of you which eateth with me shall betray me.
Can you imagine what the God, the Father felt, to know that His creation, man, was going to torment, torture and crucify His only Son?! As long as I live I will never understand how God could love man so much that He would let His son die for them. I ask myself would I let my son die
for any of the best friends I have ever had and I love, for a person who hates me, for a person who hates my Son, NO!
For the addicts of this world, drugs, alcohol, sex, pornography, liars, gossipers, there are all kind of things to be addicted to this list could go on and on but NEVER would I let my Son die for any such as these!
Even harder still, For the rapist, murderer, child molester, physically, mentally and emotionally abusive people, parents who kill their own children, spouses that kill one another, Children that kill their parents, serial killers, people that just kill people for fun?!! A millions times no, I couldn't!
How could God love us so much He could stand by and watch the death and the betrayal of His son, yet He did.
It's not God that causes bad things to happen, He has given each of us free will, we can choose to serve Him or we choose to serve Satan, He will never force us to do anything. Just as I can choose to serve Him, so can the Sinner choose to serve Satan as their Master.
Innocent people suffer because of choices made in sin, some never had a choice, they were the victims.
I guess I have poured out my heart to ask that in your pain, You turn to God and not away, that you see the real enemy and instigator of your pain is Satan.
Tell God your hurt, if your the victim, the Sinner, the backslider, the one who was hurt by words, or actions of a person you trusted, no matter where you stand, His love is everlasting, his mercy endures for ever.
I am sorry this is so scattered and long today, but my heart is broken for those I love and the pain they are feeling.
Jamie
I may not "feel" He is with me but, I "KNOW" He is with me. I can't trust my feelings, my mood and my emotions, after all they change like the weather....sometimes a little more quickly than others....
http://youtu.be/ZWZI9KAUWak
I can't trust in what I see, I can't hope in the world around me, I can't place my faith in my emotions, My own relationship with Christ can not depend on the actions and lives of those around me.
Without Christ, I can't cope with the evil that surrounds me. I am one who won't read the news because, it leaves me feeling sick to my stomach....burdened. I can't attend a school event without my heart breaking, I look around the gym, more than one or two my heart and my eyes will be drawn to and I feel my eyes start tearing up and while they may never know, I pray for them. . There may never be another person in their life who loves them enough to do so. If I am alone I cry on the way home, and I hug my own kids a little tighter, and I pray that God protects them from the evil that surrounds them, that his angels watch over them when they are away from me.
There are different gifts God gives us, one I ask Him for is wisdom, discernment that in my heart I will know, the evil, the hypocrite, those that aren't trustworthy long before I am given a reason for it.
In the day we live, the church is the best place for Satan to hide. Then from the inside he can destroy us. What wounds us more? When we are hurt by a stranger, or when we are betrayed by a friend, brother/sister in Christ, that we trusted. The sad thing is that we are so quick to blame God in our hurt, to become bitter, to even hate God and anybody associated with Christ. Some never see that behind every bad church related experience, Satan was working. At times even true well meaning Christians become Satan's pawn, and be petty, rude, hateful, and just plain wrong, not only by man's standard but by God's standard. God's standard is very clear in
1 Corinthians 13 (if you want to read)
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20corinthians%2013&version=KJV
Then there are those that are wolves among us, dressed in sheep clothing, even Christ had one He loved to betray Him
Mark 14:18
And as they sat and did eat, Jesus said, Verily I say unto you, One of you which eateth with me shall betray me.
Can you imagine what the God, the Father felt, to know that His creation, man, was going to torment, torture and crucify His only Son?! As long as I live I will never understand how God could love man so much that He would let His son die for them. I ask myself would I let my son die
for any of the best friends I have ever had and I love, for a person who hates me, for a person who hates my Son, NO!
For the addicts of this world, drugs, alcohol, sex, pornography, liars, gossipers, there are all kind of things to be addicted to this list could go on and on but NEVER would I let my Son die for any such as these!
Even harder still, For the rapist, murderer, child molester, physically, mentally and emotionally abusive people, parents who kill their own children, spouses that kill one another, Children that kill their parents, serial killers, people that just kill people for fun?!! A millions times no, I couldn't!
How could God love us so much He could stand by and watch the death and the betrayal of His son, yet He did.
It's not God that causes bad things to happen, He has given each of us free will, we can choose to serve Him or we choose to serve Satan, He will never force us to do anything. Just as I can choose to serve Him, so can the Sinner choose to serve Satan as their Master.
Innocent people suffer because of choices made in sin, some never had a choice, they were the victims.
I guess I have poured out my heart to ask that in your pain, You turn to God and not away, that you see the real enemy and instigator of your pain is Satan.
Tell God your hurt, if your the victim, the Sinner, the backslider, the one who was hurt by words, or actions of a person you trusted, no matter where you stand, His love is everlasting, his mercy endures for ever.
I am sorry this is so scattered and long today, but my heart is broken for those I love and the pain they are feeling.
Jamie
Monday, August 13, 2012
First Day of School and the last of my babies....
I don't have the energy and the time to write my heart tonight so I will just have to give you some highlights of the day.
First of all we were put in a school I had only heard bad things about, so I was freaking out all last week trying to get the principal of our old school to call me and see if it was a mistake. She never did so I finally got a hold of somebody who told me it was no mistake. So I, being me, you know, me who doesn't like change of plans without time to adjust to them, or not good surprises, whatever you want to call it....yeah.
So I went in to the NEW school on Friday and talked with the secretary who was EXTREMELY NICE, 1st. answer to prayer.
Came home told Jadyn who has a hard time with new schools and unexpected changed with unknown outcomes, like me. She kinda was upset just because she was nervous but was not to bad. 2nd answer to prayer.
Today -First day of school. What a relief when they came home! Jadyn LOVED it, said she is going back there next year and it felt like she was back in Ohio ( she loved her school in Moraine Meadows) she loved the SO NICE librarian, had NICE lunch aids, LOVES her NICE teacher....everything she can't wait till tomorrow. She made 3 friends which for Jadyn is another answer to prayer! I guess if you don't know what school has been like for her since we moved you wouldn't understand what a huge answer to prayer all this was. I pray that God blesses her the rest of the year with what He knows is best even when I didn't know He knew and worked it out for our good.
Ethan-First day of school, Kindergarten. I kept busy all day and even know I have so much I need to do before I can go to bed. He tried hard not to break down and cry, but kept taking both hands and wiping the tears away as if that would make him not cry. He did so good though, here is is commentary of the day.
Me: Ethan! did you like it? Ethan-puts head down and shakes no. Me: you didn't?! Did you like your teacher? was she nice? Ethan: No to both those too (he did like Mrs. Cain from church she is his class aid)...he is acting pitiful like he had the worst day of his life....
we live less than 4 mins from the school and before we got home he could no longer pretend that he hated school and was miserable so he became animated and here was the rush of his day,
He made a new friend, his name is Caleb Snake, there is a mean boy in class who has moles all over his face, no he has a million moles all over his body and he hit me with his hand....(I ask what Ethan did) "I HIT HIM BACK!" Another little boy had cuts all over his arms and he picked off his scabs and put it on me! ...(I appropriately freak out.....) had a hamburger for lunch, I am soooo tired, my feet hurt so bad, my back hurts I am wore out, I had to set on the floor all day, WE HAVE TWO PLAYGROUNDS!, I am so tired, I am hungry, I am thirsty, my feet hurt. Mom, do you know what to do if you need more friends? You just go up to somebody and say Hey, do you want to be my friend, cause that's what I did and he said yes and that is all you have to do to make a friend!
Cayden and Tre`- Loved it. Tre first year of middle school and he absolutely loves it. Ethan was wondering who the prettiest girl in the world was and Cayden told him he knew, I guess the prettiest girl in the world is, in all Cayden's classes, according to him.....think I need to check this one out! From Tre` I got, they have the best pizza in the world at school and He loved all his teachers and made soooo many new friends plus seen all his old friends.
Me: I did laundry......all day, no joke I still have another 2 loads to fold but I took a break to blog and read facebook, made peach Jam, was going to freeze salsa but have no jars so that will have to wait., cleaned out Ethan's drawers, organized his clothes....and still only marked one thing off my to do list and it was not even laundry it was a simple phone call.....sigh.....I missed them all day. I hugged Cayden and Tre` so tight when they got home.....Tre` just kinda stood there, I said well I guess you all didn't miss me like i missed you all!
So tomorrow is another day and it begins in 10 mins and i have yet to finish today so I better run.
I will tell you later about another prayer God answered for us today, I know these aren't big prayers or miracles to you but they are important to me and small as they were God heard them and took time to answer all these little worries that has tormented me for weeks now, and for that I am grateful.
First of all we were put in a school I had only heard bad things about, so I was freaking out all last week trying to get the principal of our old school to call me and see if it was a mistake. She never did so I finally got a hold of somebody who told me it was no mistake. So I, being me, you know, me who doesn't like change of plans without time to adjust to them, or not good surprises, whatever you want to call it....yeah.
So I went in to the NEW school on Friday and talked with the secretary who was EXTREMELY NICE, 1st. answer to prayer.
Came home told Jadyn who has a hard time with new schools and unexpected changed with unknown outcomes, like me. She kinda was upset just because she was nervous but was not to bad. 2nd answer to prayer.
Today -First day of school. What a relief when they came home! Jadyn LOVED it, said she is going back there next year and it felt like she was back in Ohio ( she loved her school in Moraine Meadows) she loved the SO NICE librarian, had NICE lunch aids, LOVES her NICE teacher....everything she can't wait till tomorrow. She made 3 friends which for Jadyn is another answer to prayer! I guess if you don't know what school has been like for her since we moved you wouldn't understand what a huge answer to prayer all this was. I pray that God blesses her the rest of the year with what He knows is best even when I didn't know He knew and worked it out for our good.
Ethan-First day of school, Kindergarten. I kept busy all day and even know I have so much I need to do before I can go to bed. He tried hard not to break down and cry, but kept taking both hands and wiping the tears away as if that would make him not cry. He did so good though, here is is commentary of the day.
Me: Ethan! did you like it? Ethan-puts head down and shakes no. Me: you didn't?! Did you like your teacher? was she nice? Ethan: No to both those too (he did like Mrs. Cain from church she is his class aid)...he is acting pitiful like he had the worst day of his life....
we live less than 4 mins from the school and before we got home he could no longer pretend that he hated school and was miserable so he became animated and here was the rush of his day,
He made a new friend, his name is Caleb Snake, there is a mean boy in class who has moles all over his face, no he has a million moles all over his body and he hit me with his hand....(I ask what Ethan did) "I HIT HIM BACK!" Another little boy had cuts all over his arms and he picked off his scabs and put it on me! ...(I appropriately freak out.....) had a hamburger for lunch, I am soooo tired, my feet hurt so bad, my back hurts I am wore out, I had to set on the floor all day, WE HAVE TWO PLAYGROUNDS!, I am so tired, I am hungry, I am thirsty, my feet hurt. Mom, do you know what to do if you need more friends? You just go up to somebody and say Hey, do you want to be my friend, cause that's what I did and he said yes and that is all you have to do to make a friend!
Cayden and Tre`- Loved it. Tre first year of middle school and he absolutely loves it. Ethan was wondering who the prettiest girl in the world was and Cayden told him he knew, I guess the prettiest girl in the world is, in all Cayden's classes, according to him.....think I need to check this one out! From Tre` I got, they have the best pizza in the world at school and He loved all his teachers and made soooo many new friends plus seen all his old friends.
Me: I did laundry......all day, no joke I still have another 2 loads to fold but I took a break to blog and read facebook, made peach Jam, was going to freeze salsa but have no jars so that will have to wait., cleaned out Ethan's drawers, organized his clothes....and still only marked one thing off my to do list and it was not even laundry it was a simple phone call.....sigh.....I missed them all day. I hugged Cayden and Tre` so tight when they got home.....Tre` just kinda stood there, I said well I guess you all didn't miss me like i missed you all!
So tomorrow is another day and it begins in 10 mins and i have yet to finish today so I better run.
I will tell you later about another prayer God answered for us today, I know these aren't big prayers or miracles to you but they are important to me and small as they were God heard them and took time to answer all these little worries that has tormented me for weeks now, and for that I am grateful.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
A jumble of thoughts
I have so many things on my mind lately. Yeah, I know your just dying to hear about all my problems in life! ;) So if you made it past that 2nd sentence, I will share with you some of my thought lately.
First the IN HIM 2012 music conference
This was the best year I have ever been to. To be honest, I didn't expect more than just the joy and fun of being able to sing with other people and to learn music related things. I am not big on solo-ing. I love the beautiful blending of voices in perfect harmony, being able to sing alto while the leads sing their part and as an alto I get to do all kind of different things, but at conference I was able to be a "Soprano" for the first time and used a part of my voice that I don't normally use. okay enough rambling.....the best part of the Music Conference was the spiritual encouragement, I have not been in a service where I felt God so close in a personal way in such a long time. I wouldn't have missed it for anything and it was worth going without sleep and the drive There and Home every night.
I watched and listened as a "group" got up and sang "Waiting In the Water" by the Isaacs a song that speaks of the promise of healing and walking on in faith even when that healing doesn't happen right away, and I cried. Because I knew that only the week before one of them had been in bed for a week, unable to move without pain due to an incurable kidney disease and the treatments to help the disease causing as much if not more pain. Yet they sang "I'll walk on and Just believe, He hears my prayer and when I get there, the miracle promised by my father......is waiting in the water"
I listened to a "family" sing about "Learning to Lean on Jesus" and knowing that in the past year, they have had to do that in ways they had never expected. And once again, I cried. I cried not only cause my heart broke at the trial they faced but, I cried at the humbling thought of how amazing God is, how in the weakest moments of our life, He provides the strength to make it through.
It struck me, as it has before that, as a congregation or average church goer who has never had to minister to others, or been brought up in a home where ministry was your or your parents life, sometimes we don't really understand what it costs the person who gets up and sings to you, We don't know the reason they can sing the song with such a brokeness or such a burden is because they have or are still going through the trials they are trying to encourage you through. Or the preacher who preaches the Bible and the why's and the how's of living a Christian life.
They are singing of a God who can heal, while their body is in pain, they are singing of a God that mends the broken heart when their own has been broken in two. They aren't just singing words or beautiful melodies they are singing their faith, they are saying to God, they believe he is working things for their good even when it seems impossible.
First the IN HIM 2012 music conference
This was the best year I have ever been to. To be honest, I didn't expect more than just the joy and fun of being able to sing with other people and to learn music related things. I am not big on solo-ing. I love the beautiful blending of voices in perfect harmony, being able to sing alto while the leads sing their part and as an alto I get to do all kind of different things, but at conference I was able to be a "Soprano" for the first time and used a part of my voice that I don't normally use. okay enough rambling.....the best part of the Music Conference was the spiritual encouragement, I have not been in a service where I felt God so close in a personal way in such a long time. I wouldn't have missed it for anything and it was worth going without sleep and the drive There and Home every night.
I watched and listened as a "group" got up and sang "Waiting In the Water" by the Isaacs a song that speaks of the promise of healing and walking on in faith even when that healing doesn't happen right away, and I cried. Because I knew that only the week before one of them had been in bed for a week, unable to move without pain due to an incurable kidney disease and the treatments to help the disease causing as much if not more pain. Yet they sang "I'll walk on and Just believe, He hears my prayer and when I get there, the miracle promised by my father......is waiting in the water"
I listened to a "family" sing about "Learning to Lean on Jesus" and knowing that in the past year, they have had to do that in ways they had never expected. And once again, I cried. I cried not only cause my heart broke at the trial they faced but, I cried at the humbling thought of how amazing God is, how in the weakest moments of our life, He provides the strength to make it through.
It struck me, as it has before that, as a congregation or average church goer who has never had to minister to others, or been brought up in a home where ministry was your or your parents life, sometimes we don't really understand what it costs the person who gets up and sings to you, We don't know the reason they can sing the song with such a brokeness or such a burden is because they have or are still going through the trials they are trying to encourage you through. Or the preacher who preaches the Bible and the why's and the how's of living a Christian life.
They are singing of a God who can heal, while their body is in pain, they are singing of a God that mends the broken heart when their own has been broken in two. They aren't just singing words or beautiful melodies they are singing their faith, they are saying to God, they believe he is working things for their good even when it seems impossible.
Monday, July 30, 2012
The true meaning of a Rainbow.
I sometimes will find myself thinking how neat and beautiful a rainbow themed party or occasion would be, then thanks to the perverted culture in which we live I have that second thought of, Oh I can't do that, I wouldn't want people to think I was a gay or lesbian supporter. Then something inside me rebels at the thought, I get angry. Angry at myself for letting this world try to push their beliefs and their perverted way of thinking on my! The Rainbow is not a sign of Gay Pride nor is it a sign of Gay support, no matter how much or how hard they might try to insist and push it on us or make us think. If you don't believe me read for yourself.
Genesis 9:12-17
A rainbow is a token of a covenant between God and all mankind!
King James Version (KJV)
12 And
God said, This is the token of the covenant which I make between me and
you and every living creature that is with you, for perpetual
generations:
13 I do set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a token of a covenant between me and the earth.
14 And it shall come to pass, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be seen in the cloud:
15 And I will remember my covenant, which is between me and you and every living creature of all flesh; and the waters shall no more become a flood to destroy all flesh.
16 And the bow shall be in the cloud; and I will look upon it, that I may remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is upon the earth.
17 And God said unto Noah, This is the token of the covenant, which I have established between me and all flesh that is upon the earth.
All though I have friends who have been/ are gay or lesbian, I don't hate them. I love them, and my heart goes out to them because I know they weren't born that way, they went through life traumatizing events and hurts as a child or young teenager, and instead of talking to a wise councilor they dealt with and chose to handle their hurt by making even more wrong choices which has led to more hurt for them, more disappointment and now even bitterness towards God and all things good and pure.
I refuse to let this perverted world take away from me a sign, a reminder of a COVENANT between my God and me....not only does the Rainbow remind me of God's promise not to destroy the world with water, it is a HUGE reminder to me that GOD KEEPS HIS PROMISES! When I see a rainbow in the sky my heart says thank you Lord that every promise in your word is true and dependable, thank you for being the one constant in my Life, the one thing that I can rest assured is that God will never fail me, so wear your rainbow anyways you want, say it stands for whatever you want to say but, your opinion will NEVER change the reason for the Rainbow. It was created by God, for His people, and for all mankind!
When I see a person wearing a rainbow, I have to smile, I mean isn't it so amazing that God can use even the rebellious spirit in which it is worn by an unbelievers to remind us of His faithfulness?! Wear all the rainbows you want, your helping to spread message of God's promise.....as a matter of fact the next party I do just might be rainbow themed in honor of my God and His powerful promise! And if I could I would make shirts with Rainbows on the front saying "Rainbow- A reminder of a God who keeps His Promises to Man"and Chick-Fil-A on the back.....but alas I have no t-shirt printing press! Of course we do have Hobby Lobby and some enthusiastic kids that love to paint T-shirts!!! ;) So if your interested get with me and we can have a kids day tomorrow and make shirts for all of you going to Chik-Fil-A on Wed! lol!
So I know this is more of me venting today but I just had to say it, I get so tired of the Devil trying to take more and more of God's promises away from God's people sometimes we just need to say in a nice polite way, HEY! THAT IS MY PROMISE FROM GOD AND I REFUSE TO LET YOU TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME!!!! Sometimes, we have to fight to keep what we are given and fight for what we believe.
13 I do set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be for a token of a covenant between me and the earth.
14 And it shall come to pass, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be seen in the cloud:
15 And I will remember my covenant, which is between me and you and every living creature of all flesh; and the waters shall no more become a flood to destroy all flesh.
16 And the bow shall be in the cloud; and I will look upon it, that I may remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is upon the earth.
17 And God said unto Noah, This is the token of the covenant, which I have established between me and all flesh that is upon the earth.
All though I have friends who have been/ are gay or lesbian, I don't hate them. I love them, and my heart goes out to them because I know they weren't born that way, they went through life traumatizing events and hurts as a child or young teenager, and instead of talking to a wise councilor they dealt with and chose to handle their hurt by making even more wrong choices which has led to more hurt for them, more disappointment and now even bitterness towards God and all things good and pure.
I refuse to let this perverted world take away from me a sign, a reminder of a COVENANT between my God and me....not only does the Rainbow remind me of God's promise not to destroy the world with water, it is a HUGE reminder to me that GOD KEEPS HIS PROMISES! When I see a rainbow in the sky my heart says thank you Lord that every promise in your word is true and dependable, thank you for being the one constant in my Life, the one thing that I can rest assured is that God will never fail me, so wear your rainbow anyways you want, say it stands for whatever you want to say but, your opinion will NEVER change the reason for the Rainbow. It was created by God, for His people, and for all mankind!
When I see a person wearing a rainbow, I have to smile, I mean isn't it so amazing that God can use even the rebellious spirit in which it is worn by an unbelievers to remind us of His faithfulness?! Wear all the rainbows you want, your helping to spread message of God's promise.....as a matter of fact the next party I do just might be rainbow themed in honor of my God and His powerful promise! And if I could I would make shirts with Rainbows on the front saying "Rainbow- A reminder of a God who keeps His Promises to Man"and Chick-Fil-A on the back.....but alas I have no t-shirt printing press! Of course we do have Hobby Lobby and some enthusiastic kids that love to paint T-shirts!!! ;) So if your interested get with me and we can have a kids day tomorrow and make shirts for all of you going to Chik-Fil-A on Wed! lol!
So I know this is more of me venting today but I just had to say it, I get so tired of the Devil trying to take more and more of God's promises away from God's people sometimes we just need to say in a nice polite way, HEY! THAT IS MY PROMISE FROM GOD AND I REFUSE TO LET YOU TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME!!!! Sometimes, we have to fight to keep what we are given and fight for what we believe.
Monday, July 9, 2012
I am not a Sparrow
Several weeks ago I was watching some birds. I noticed some were especially disgusting birds, they just looked messy & dirty. I remember thinking "What a disgusting nasty bird!" Then I remembered the verses in the Bible about how God sees every sparrow that falls and how we are of more value than many sparrows. However, I knew there was more to that thought than just God saying he cares more for us than what we consider an ugly worthless and dirty bird. Sooo....being the smart, studious and intellectual person that I am *cough* (that is definitely sarcasm or opposite word day whichever you prefer)I decided to read about this worthless bird that God cares so much for and how it might relate to me or any of us really.
~Sparrows engage in dust bathing. Sparrows will first scratch a hole in the ground with their feet, then lie in it and fling dirt or sand over their bodies with flicks of their wings. That is one way they "clean" themselves.
How many times have I not only spiritually fell but I have lain in my sin and failure and become more of a dirty mess instead of getting up? Instead of excepting the Grace that God extends to me I kept trying to clean myself or redeem myself. I know, nothing I do can save me from Sin, not good works, not even in living every "man made" standard preached, not by self denial.....nothing. Nothing I do can cleanse my heart from Sin.
Matthew 10:29
Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father.
Sparrows are frequently used to represent the common and vulgar, or the lewd. It seems like it is an insult to be a sparrow, or a shame.
Could it be God was saying to us, He loves us even when we are at our lowest. While we were yet in our sin? I remember when I was lost, always trying to hide what I really felt like inside but, at night I couldn't run from God and the conviction and the guilt of my sin. I remember the shame I felt. I remember that heavy feeling of being dirty, used, alone, and miserable. And always the fear of dying lost or Jesus coming back for His Church, and me not making it, missing the Rapture.....that was my biggest fear, that I would always be the "dirty sparrow", I would be left behind...alone forever. And Yet, God says not only is his eye on the Sparrows of this earth but even the very hairs of my and your head he has numbered
Luke 12:7
But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows.
When I Google Sparrows the common related searches was how to get rid of Sparrows. It seems the Sparrow is not very well liked by more than a few! Isn't that just like the enemy of our soul, not only does He delight in our failures and our sin, but His ultimate desire is to destroy our lives. And yet over and over again scripture says FEAR NOT, don't be afraid of your past mistakes take comfort in knowing there is hope, there is mercy and there is God that loves you and wants what is best for you.
One last thought I had was I AM NOT A SPARROW! There have been time when others have tried to make me feel like I was nothing more than a Sparrow. I have seen other people I love or brothers or sisters in Christ be made to feel like they are sparrows, and my heart has broke for them. Life has dealt them an awful blow, or they suffer because of choices made in their youth....lots of reason people have for feeling like they aren't important and that nobody cares for them. Some have been made to feel that their best was never enough, that they themselves wasn't enough for one they gave all to, some are made to feel that because they don't look a certain way or weigh 110lbs or wear a size 4, or have blonde hair and think it should be brown, some of us let others tell us we are nothing more than a sparrow. I admit I am guilty myself of finding fault in my looks or my abilities, but I pray we never forget we are NOT sparrows, we will one day soar on wings of eagles, walk on streets of gold, and hello?!! we are children of a King, we have nothing to be ashamed of.
Girls, if the biggest trial we face in life is that we don't have the latest hair cut, wear make-up like everybody else, have beautiful jewelry or the perfectly manicured nails, that we wear modest skirts and shirts that cover all that should be covered EVEN WHEN YOU BEND OVER, instead of wearing the latest fashion and letting all mankind see every dimple of cellulite and fat roll or jelly jiggle you have, cause let's face it no matter how skinny you are.....your still a female....enough said on that, I guess if you want me to be more specific you can ask me, but I do have some "secret male followers" so I will spare them the girl talk! lol!
Seriously.....Your Worth more than that, your not a sparrow, don't "wash" in the dirt, your a daughter of a King. Dress like it, talk like it, live like it and believe it, you are worth something, don't ever let anybody tell you any different. You will never regret living a life of purity, your only regret will be that you didn't. Some godly women live with the mistakes of their youth, and if they could go back they would tell you the only thing they would change is that they had dedicated their lives at a younger age.
Signing off for this post, with many heartbroken tear filled prayers for those of you who feel like your nothing more than a sparrow. I love you but more importantly God Loves you
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| Dust Bath |
~Sparrows engage in dust bathing. Sparrows will first scratch a hole in the ground with their feet, then lie in it and fling dirt or sand over their bodies with flicks of their wings. That is one way they "clean" themselves.
How many times have I not only spiritually fell but I have lain in my sin and failure and become more of a dirty mess instead of getting up? Instead of excepting the Grace that God extends to me I kept trying to clean myself or redeem myself. I know, nothing I do can save me from Sin, not good works, not even in living every "man made" standard preached, not by self denial.....nothing. Nothing I do can cleanse my heart from Sin.
Matthew 10:29
Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father.
Sparrows are frequently used to represent the common and vulgar, or the lewd. It seems like it is an insult to be a sparrow, or a shame.
Could it be God was saying to us, He loves us even when we are at our lowest. While we were yet in our sin? I remember when I was lost, always trying to hide what I really felt like inside but, at night I couldn't run from God and the conviction and the guilt of my sin. I remember the shame I felt. I remember that heavy feeling of being dirty, used, alone, and miserable. And always the fear of dying lost or Jesus coming back for His Church, and me not making it, missing the Rapture.....that was my biggest fear, that I would always be the "dirty sparrow", I would be left behind...alone forever. And Yet, God says not only is his eye on the Sparrows of this earth but even the very hairs of my and your head he has numbered
Luke 12:7
But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows.
When I Google Sparrows the common related searches was how to get rid of Sparrows. It seems the Sparrow is not very well liked by more than a few! Isn't that just like the enemy of our soul, not only does He delight in our failures and our sin, but His ultimate desire is to destroy our lives. And yet over and over again scripture says FEAR NOT, don't be afraid of your past mistakes take comfort in knowing there is hope, there is mercy and there is God that loves you and wants what is best for you.
One last thought I had was I AM NOT A SPARROW! There have been time when others have tried to make me feel like I was nothing more than a Sparrow. I have seen other people I love or brothers or sisters in Christ be made to feel like they are sparrows, and my heart has broke for them. Life has dealt them an awful blow, or they suffer because of choices made in their youth....lots of reason people have for feeling like they aren't important and that nobody cares for them. Some have been made to feel that their best was never enough, that they themselves wasn't enough for one they gave all to, some are made to feel that because they don't look a certain way or weigh 110lbs or wear a size 4, or have blonde hair and think it should be brown, some of us let others tell us we are nothing more than a sparrow. I admit I am guilty myself of finding fault in my looks or my abilities, but I pray we never forget we are NOT sparrows, we will one day soar on wings of eagles, walk on streets of gold, and hello?!! we are children of a King, we have nothing to be ashamed of.
Seriously.....Your Worth more than that, your not a sparrow, don't "wash" in the dirt, your a daughter of a King. Dress like it, talk like it, live like it and believe it, you are worth something, don't ever let anybody tell you any different. You will never regret living a life of purity, your only regret will be that you didn't. Some godly women live with the mistakes of their youth, and if they could go back they would tell you the only thing they would change is that they had dedicated their lives at a younger age.
Signing off for this post, with many heartbroken tear filled prayers for those of you who feel like your nothing more than a sparrow. I love you but more importantly God Loves you
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