In The Waiting

Here is one of my favorite songs, I wanted to share it with you.....
I can't count the times I have sang this song to myself, and let the tears fall. I remember the first time it really struck home for me. Our cd had just come out, and Bev was bringing it to church for the girls to hear. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to go, I was at home that night, in an emotional, mentally and physical mess...I had "lost" our baby that day. Bev came over and we put the cd in, she trying to be there for me, and me trying not to let her see how hurt I was, then this song came on. She left and later told my sister, she knew I needed to be alone then. I cried and cried letting this song be my prayer, listening to myself sing it and knowing if that cd never touched another soul that maybe we recorded that one for me alone. I wish I could say I have never been "In the waiting" again, but I can't.
There have been times when I have sang this at church, and a person will come to my mind and it's almost like I know I am singing it for them. It's hard knowing people are hurting and being helpless to heal their hurt, mend their broken hearts, erase their painful pasts, heal their body...but, I try to sing it with everything in me, hoping they will realize sometimes God can take a song and use it to speak to them. There have been times I have begged God for a personal answer, let this person give me a word, or let this happen....a fleece so to speak. I have learned God don't always answer those fleece prayers. Sometime He wants us to trust Him in the Darkest times of our lives.
"The Silence doesn't mean that I'm Alone, as long as I can Hear that I am still your own" 
 How I have clung to that line! I have found healing comes in the least obvious ways for myself. Sometimes it has been through the Preacher, sometimes through a song, sometimes a promise from his Word....and most of the time it has been a band-aid at a time.....it hasn't been a surgery it has been a Stitch here and there.
Can I explain Life's hurt, or the things we go through in life....no but, I can point you to the one who can heal that hurt....

Pain.
The gift nobody longs for; still it comes.
But somehow leaves us stronger when it's gone away.
Pray.
I try and pray for Your will to be done.
But I confess it's never fast enough for me it seems.
The hardest part is waiting on You.
When what I really want is just to see Your hand move.

I want a peace beyond my understanding.
I want to feel it fall like rain
In the middle of my hurting.
I want to feel Your arms as they surround me.
And let me know that it's okay
To be here in this place
Resting in the peace that only comes
In the waiting.

Time.
Time to let it go and just believe.
Trusting in what no one else but You can see.
Free.
Freedom from the fears that close me in.
And I can get beyond where I have been
But then again, the silence doesn't mean that I'm alone.
As long as I can hear that I am still Your own.