Broken but I'm Healed

Found this song by chance today, it stirred many emotions and memories. 

How many times have I went to church needing "something", for me that could be different daily! It seems I depend so much on God, for so many areas of my life. Honestly there have been time I have left as broken as when I came. I have wondered how that can be, God is not changed, He has all power, He wants to be my Healer so why am I not healed. Looking back there are many reasons why I didn't get what I needed when I needed it. 

Among them, I didn't want to let go of that hurt, I wasn't in the church (not a building but spiritually speaking) I needed to be in, I let others hinder me, I listened to Satan's lies, I gave up to easy....many other reasons. All of them have to do with the human aspect. Never has it been that God wasn't willing, that God wasn't reaching for me, or that God didn't love me.

Sometime I have hung onto the HURT that had me broken, I have used it as a shield to protect myself from getting hurt again by life or people, makes no difference, really I was afraid to let go of it for fear that

it would leave me vulnerable. or worse still that other would see I was hurt or that they had hurt me...

Sometimes I have doubted God's abilities to heal. Mostly, I didn't want to ask Him for Healing only for Him to say, to me as he did to Paul

2Corinthians 12:8, 9

8For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.

 

9And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

I am not sure I can bear to hear those words so there have been time I haven't asked, like a child who wants something but the fear of being told, "No" is greater than the desire. I have always been that child, and even as an adult I would rather not ask, than to ask and be told no...not really sure why! lol!

Once I learn to let go of every hindering thing in my Life, I have found God to be right there with Love like an ointment that heals and covers every hurt, with forgiveness that is the best medicine for a straying heart in pain, with grace and mercy for my starving thirsty soul, and with peace for my troubled and weary mind...and with His gentle spirit ministering to me, I feel myself become whole once again. The memories are there, the scars of past hurts yet, somehow there is renewed strength, there is hope once again and there is ...Healing.

Verse 1:
So you enter into this building,
You brought your burdens, brought your pain.
I have a message for you today,
That when you leave here, you won't be the same.

Verse 2:
So you tell me you've been to your physician,
Look at you there's been no change in your condition.
Reach out and touch the Master's Throne,
There's healing for your mind, your body, and your soul.

Chorus 1:
God can heal, He can deliver.
He can mend your brokenness.
He has a miracle to fit your needs,
Once you trust Him, you will receive.

Verse 3:
God knows about your situation,
But with every test and every trial there is revelation,
That God is able to supply every one of your needs;
He's here to touch you, heal you, He'll set you free.