I need Healing, not salt in the wound! ;)

A stiff apology is a second insult... 

       The injured party does not want to be Compensated because; they have been wronged;

 they want to be healed because they have been hurt.

A FB Friend posted this as her status yesterday, and it stuck with me. Matter of fact I couldn't get it out of  my mind and this morning I woke up and it was still there. Maybe God knew I would need it for a friend today.

 You know how you feel when somebody lies on you, I mean let's face it, it's hard enough to live good and overcome your real life mistakes and failures but to have to live with complete LIES hanging over your head and knowing that in the back of everybody's mind they always wonder, "Is "IT" true?"  I know what that feels like to some degree, I have been lied on when I was younger and to this day, I have to sometimes take it to God and say I can't help what was said or not be hurt but I can give it to You and by Your grace live my life in a way that people no longer remember or no longer care because, it is not who I am today in Christ. 

There are those who are hurt as a child so deeply and publicly that the LIE spread on them or the words said to them went well beyond childhood and teenager years into their adult years, it haunts them to the point of  deep depression, some to suicide, some to backsliding. It didn't matter that they knew it was a LIE, what mattered was that it was told by a friend,a loved one, your family, a respected hero in your eyes.... Some LIES can ruin your good name and put a cloud of suspicion over you for the rest of your life, some WORDS can affect who we are as adults, how we respond to life today how we feel about ourselves 30 years later. It is only natural and human for us to want to be vindicated and avenged, and when that doesn't happen we ask God WHY?! Why are they getting away with this, when my life is ruined and I am innocent?!  Sometimes we blame ourselves because we feel there must be something wrong with us, because we just can't make sense of it any other way so we go between blaming ourselves, blaming God, blaming the indiviual.....We just want somebody to take responsibility for the "Hurt"

Sometimes we feel LIFE owes us an apology because it has been SOOOOO unfair and it seems more than we can bear! 

Psalms 10:1

 Why standest thou afar off, O Lord? why hidest thou thyself in times of trouble?

13:1

  How long wilt thou forget me, O Lord? for ever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me?

 And then......"the apology",  some never get that apology, others get a "vague reference" to an "obscure event" that was really a LIE or a wrong but it never is just said, "I lied on you, I was wrong and I am sorry, Can you forgive me?"  or "I was wrong for what I said" I mean we could sat here all day and think of apologies we would like to hear from people who have wronged us, but that is not beneficial to either of us! lol! Like that quote said sometimes it only rips opens that old wound and leaves us bleeding and weak, because we are thinking, "You did that?!" or "You said that?!" and you think that "THIS" is an apology?! 

Or how about when you get a "text" for your apology, or the apology comes through a 3rd party? It is more hurtful, I agree. To know the how much damage and how deep the hurt you suffered and to see the wrong doer gets off with so little effort or real humility and real heart felt sincerity.

I said all that to let you know, I understand the hurt and the feelings of betrayal and I am in no way trying to belittle those real feelings or give you a band-aid and Aspirin for the open heart surgery so to speak.....

But Read what David says

Psalm 18

1 I will love thee, O Lord, my strength.

² The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.
³ I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
⁴ The sorrows of death compassed me, and the floods of ungodly men made me afraid.
⁵ The sorrows of hell compassed me about: the snares of death prevented me.
⁶ In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.
⁷ Then the earth shook and trembled; the foundations also of the hills moved and were shaken, because he was wroth.
⁸ There went up a smoke out of his nostrils, and fire out of his mouth devoured: coals were kindled by it.
⁹ He bowed the heavens also, and came down: and darkness was under his feet.
¹⁰ And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly: yea, he did fly upon the wings of the wind.
¹¹ He made darkness his secret place; his pavilion round about him were dark waters and thick clouds of the skies.
¹² At the brightness that was before him his thick clouds passed, hail stones and coals of fire.
¹³ The Lord also thundered in the heavens, and the Highest gave his voice; hail stones and coals of fire.
¹⁴ Yea, he sent out his arrows, and scattered them; and he shot out lightnings, and discomfited them.
¹⁵ Then the channels of waters were seen, and the foundations of the world were discovered at thy rebuke, O Lord, at the blast of the breath of thy nostrils.
¹⁶ He sent from above, he took me, he drew me out of many waters.
¹⁷ He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them which hated me: for they were too strong for me.
¹⁸ They prevented me in the day of my calamity: but the Lord was my stay.

Don't let "It" destroy you, let "It" make you a stronger person. Those wounds, they will always be there. I have found that when those "stitches" start to pull apart and the hurt threatens to overwhelm you again.....
Go back to the Healer of your Heart, to the Mender of your Soul, To the Artist of your Life who can take Broken things and turn them into Beautiful Works of Art. He will be there, not because I say it, but because He said it. 

Hebrews 13:5

for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

If you read that whole verse it says Be content with such things as you have , could it be that that means more than "earthly possession"  could it mean be content with your life as it is, because God not only is with you and for you but He also sees the greater picture? You all know I am not a bible scholar and I can't tell you how many times I have asked God what is the purpose of "THIS", and you know, I might have to ask Him that again today but, I do know that even when I personally have been unfaithful to Him.....GOD HAS NEVER BEEN UNFAITHFUL TO Me, He has been UNFAILING and UNCHANGING! And He is that faithful, unfailing, unchanging, merciful, loving and forgiving Father to you, if you let Him be. 

I know this has been long and I hope you weren't bored in reading, but it was my heart today, heavy as it feels, Maybe I just blogged to myself today, or maybe it was for you that my heart was heavy...

Love!

Jamie