Out with the old and in with the new....

sadly, Life isn't like our closets, we can't throw away the things we are tired of  living with. It would be nice in some ways, I would like to throw away the bad health my dad has had for the last 13 years, or the health problems my sister has endured for 10 or so years, be nice to throw away an extra 50lbs, or the heartbreak of loosing 4 babies, or the trials and hurt Life has brought my way....or would I? Would I really change one thing?   I am not sure. It has been the close call with Death that has made each day of Life with my dad a gift, one I had always took for granted. It has been watching my sister struggle physically, emotionally, mentally that has made me realize how fragile and precious a person is, it has made her Stronger, Better and Sympathetic for others who experience the darkness of Life in a way most of us never could. I can see where the heart break and pain has changed me in ways, for the better I hope, I have a heart that can feel the pain of others where as before, Life was all about me. I  never realized my actions caused hurt to others, or didn't think it mattered. Still.....would like to get rid of about 50lbs though without being deathly sick or something....just like throwing out that ugly skirt...you just do it with no thought and no harm caused.....  :)
So as the old year closes, I thank God for the prayers He answers, daily. The ones he didn't answer with what I wanted to hear, but He was working it all for my good. I thank Him for the daily blessing I take for granted at times, the simple beat of my heart, the breath I breathe and the amazing miracles He works just in Giving us life. 
And as another Year approaches, I pray I can be a blessing to those around me. That I can be a daily example and testimony of His love and mercy in my Life. That I always look for the things to thank Him for and not always want more "things" only want more of Him. That I can make a difference in the lives of others, and that no matter what He asks I am able to do.
And if you are reading my blog may you know I am thankful for each and every one of you in my Life. I love you all.
Happy New Year,
Jamie