sadly, Life isn't like our closets, we can't throw away the things we are tired of living with. It would be nice in some ways, I would like to throw away the bad health my dad has had for the last 13 years, or the health problems my sister has endured for 10 or so years, be nice to throw away an extra 50lbs, or the heartbreak of loosing 4 babies, or the trials and hurt Life has brought my way....or would I? Would I really change one thing? I am not sure. It has been the close call with Death that has made each day of Life with my dad a gift, one I had always took for granted. It has been watching my sister struggle physically, emotionally, mentally that has made me realize how fragile and precious a person is, it has made her Stronger, Better and Sympathetic for others who experience the darkness of Life in a way most of us never could. I can see where the heart break and pain has changed me in ways, for the better I hope, I have a heart that can feel the pain of others where as before, Life was all about me. I never realized my actions caused hurt to others, or didn't think it mattered. Still.....would like to get rid of about 50lbs though without being deathly sick or something....just like throwing out that ugly skirt...you just do it with no thought and no harm caused..... :)
So as the old year closes, I thank God for the prayers He answers, daily. The ones he didn't answer with what I wanted to hear, but He was working it all for my good. I thank Him for the daily blessing I take for granted at times, the simple beat of my heart, the breath I breathe and the amazing miracles He works just in Giving us life.
And as another Year approaches, I pray I can be a blessing to those around me. That I can be a daily example and testimony of His love and mercy in my Life. That I always look for the things to thank Him for and not always want more "things" only want more of Him. That I can make a difference in the lives of others, and that no matter what He asks I am able to do.
And if you are reading my blog may you know I am thankful for each and every one of you in my Life. I love you all.
Happy New Year,
Jamie
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Part 2 ;)
So if I stopped to name all my friends that I love dearly I might miss one! But I will try:
Richie, my first friend who listened to anything, and tried his best to get me to talk to him about what was going on with me, which was really hard in my teenage years :) He also introduced me to Gary, how can I thank him for that?!
Chastity, Jennifer, Corey, Sara, Melissa, Stephanie Shockley, Tora, Sarah Boyd, Jennifer Baker, Heather, Angela-Friends from the old days, some family but all at one time those special friends that you never forget and can always take up with right where you left off, some to this day are still as close as they were then.
Friends In Ohio:
Tammy Baker, Amanda Alexander, Holly B, Bev, Stephanie J, Bethany, Kim T.
And friends I never thought I would have, I remember telling Gary nobody likes me in Connersville, I will be so lonely and not have one friend! I honestly thought that was how my life would be here. And to my amazment I have once again underestimated not only God but people as well.
Lucy- the last person I thought would like me and the first to become a friend, the more I know her the more I realize how I never knew her!
Kristie, Joyce, Brenda, Connie, Sis Cain, Crystal, Lisa, Angie the Mays, Jerry and Diane,I better stop.....I just can't name all the people who have been a friend to me or to my family at 10th St., they have tried to make us feel welcome and loved and needed and I appreciate every way. I would have to have a church directory to get them all down.....
I am also thankful for the friendship of Gary's sister, Lori, she has been a real friend to me, she has been more like a sister.....I could say more but she knows how much I love her and respect her, and that is all that matters.
My mother-in-law, for taking us in when we had no place to go, for letting us invade her tiny 2 br house, and her privacy, for everything she did to help us through such a low time in our life.
So as you can see most of my Greatest Gifts have nothing to do with the unwrapping of gifts, they have more to do with the people I have been blessed with in my lifetime.
Richie, my first friend who listened to anything, and tried his best to get me to talk to him about what was going on with me, which was really hard in my teenage years :) He also introduced me to Gary, how can I thank him for that?!
Chastity, Jennifer, Corey, Sara, Melissa, Stephanie Shockley, Tora, Sarah Boyd, Jennifer Baker, Heather, Angela-Friends from the old days, some family but all at one time those special friends that you never forget and can always take up with right where you left off, some to this day are still as close as they were then.
Friends In Ohio:
Tammy Baker, Amanda Alexander, Holly B, Bev, Stephanie J, Bethany, Kim T.
And friends I never thought I would have, I remember telling Gary nobody likes me in Connersville, I will be so lonely and not have one friend! I honestly thought that was how my life would be here. And to my amazment I have once again underestimated not only God but people as well.
Lucy- the last person I thought would like me and the first to become a friend, the more I know her the more I realize how I never knew her!
Kristie, Joyce, Brenda, Connie, Sis Cain, Crystal, Lisa, Angie the Mays, Jerry and Diane,I better stop.....I just can't name all the people who have been a friend to me or to my family at 10th St., they have tried to make us feel welcome and loved and needed and I appreciate every way. I would have to have a church directory to get them all down.....
I am also thankful for the friendship of Gary's sister, Lori, she has been a real friend to me, she has been more like a sister.....I could say more but she knows how much I love her and respect her, and that is all that matters.
My mother-in-law, for taking us in when we had no place to go, for letting us invade her tiny 2 br house, and her privacy, for everything she did to help us through such a low time in our life.
So as you can see most of my Greatest Gifts have nothing to do with the unwrapping of gifts, they have more to do with the people I have been blessed with in my lifetime.
Saturday, December 24, 2011
The Greatest Gift I have ever been given
Wow, how to choose just one.....I can't so I'll just share a few of the "best".
#1 would HAVE to be my salvation, the forgiveness of my sin, my failures, my human faults. The grace and mercy that has been extended to me from God I couldn't make it a second without Him in my Life, He bring peace when I am panicked, He brings Love when I am feeling so alone and unloved, He brings Healing when I am Broken.....He is everything I have ever needed Him to be.
"The same gentle hands that hold me when I am broken, They conquered Death to Bring me Victory" -Redeemer by Nicole C Mullins
#2 Would be Gary, (but don't tell him) He has been a Godly husband to me, one who pushes me to go on when I want to just lay down and stop fighting, one who has held me when my heart broken, who has loved me in spite of my faults, one who has told me how awesome I am when I am doubting myself or my abilities to do things, God truly blessed me when He gave Gary to me. Did I mention....well somethings you just don't mention but, as the saying goes "Holding you, I hold Everything"
3. Cayden, Tre`, Jadyn & Ethan, you all know I will fight for them. I am a calm and pretty passive person until you mess with my kids then I become.....not myself. Each of them has been such a blessing and I pray I am the mother they deserve, that I can pass to them a Love for God, and an understanding of what a relationship with God, and the Holy Ghost is. It's not about shouting, screaming or an emotional high.....it's about a Daily walk, it's being fed spiritually by God's word. It's about how you LIVE your life, not how many times you speak in tounges or run around the church. A "blessing" is just that, it's "dessert" which is absolutely wonderful but, you can't live on dessert, you need God's word, the preaching of a Godly man who preaches the Bible and not the latest "hot topic" going around, God's word, it is our daily bread. I pray I can instill in them GOOD COMMON SENSE.....of course we still have those teen years coming so that might take a while ;)
"when I was a child I spake as a child but, when I became a man I put away childish things"
4.My family.
-My dad has lived beyond the 1-5 years the Dr. gave him, I appreciate every day he has been given, it is a gift to our whole family. I can't say it hasn't affected him It's like those huge scars he has all over his body, a reminder of God's grace knowing that we needed my dad to be here, we weren't ready for him to be taken.
I always wanted to marry somebody like my dad, who never yelled, who had endless Patience, who loved me, Gary is as close to that as I could get lol! And, my dad who always thinks I am beautiful.....ok so he does have VERY thick glasses and bad eye sight but hey who cares....He loves me.
-My mom, who has went through so much because of my dad's sickness, has become the breadwinner for them, who has to somehow make ends meet when there is nothing to pull on, who has loved my dad, who has lived out Till Death to us part, in sickness in health, for better, for worse. I know somedays it's more than she can bear and I wish I could bear it for her or at least help her but, it seems all I can do is Love her and Pray for her, maybe one day I will become what people call "Rich" and I will be able to make her life easier. My mom puts me to shame, she is constantly doing something, I am sitting saying can we quit now I am exhausted, but she keeps on through her exhaustion until every thing is finished.well.......except for those Christmas quilts she gave us 3 years ago.....they are still waiting to be finished HAHAHAHAH!
-My Sister, Thank you Jesus for giving me back my sister, For such a long time I didn't think she would ever be healed. She had always been my Best Friend, she always did everything first cause I was to scared to try things then she would say it's fine Jamie, It doesn't hurt....so then I could do them. We fought awful, but at night, I would beg her to sleep with me cause I was scared and would never admit that to nobody! I would pinch her with my toes or throw my leg on top of her which she HATES.....but she slept with me anyways! And yes I was about 16 at the time.....She would use all my hair stuff, perfume and clothes and I would be so mad, looking back if I could do it over......I would give her anything she wanted, I would be more of a big sister instead of letting her protect me I would try to protect her. Oh, and I wouldn't tie you to the piano bench.....I would let you hang out with me and all my older friends ;) I thank God for the miracle He has done in your life for pulling you from the brink of mental, and emotional Despair to restoring you. For giving me back not only my sister, but my best friend.
-Seth Micheal, how thankful I am for your salvation. You'll never know the nights I couldn't sleep for fear you would die lost, I remember laying awake at night begging God to keep you safe, to save you, to not let you die lost.....and look where you are today! We didn't fight to much cause you knew I would knock you out hehe! In my defense I also took on every boy that tied to bully you.....I remember one time grabbing a boy and swinging him around then letting him fly into a tree cause he was picking on you! Nobody had better mess with you when I was around....I love you and always have in spite of being such a moody big sister ;)
-Jeff Thanks for loving my sister....those are such simple words but, they say a lot to you and me. I love you and I am so thankful God gave you to Holly
Sarah- I love you, your the best thing that could have happened to Seth. Your one of my Best Friends, I love you!!!
-Whit ,Levi and Gavin and Taylor, so thankful for my neices and nephews, the Best friends of my children. I love you all 4!
#1 would HAVE to be my salvation, the forgiveness of my sin, my failures, my human faults. The grace and mercy that has been extended to me from God I couldn't make it a second without Him in my Life, He bring peace when I am panicked, He brings Love when I am feeling so alone and unloved, He brings Healing when I am Broken.....He is everything I have ever needed Him to be.
"The same gentle hands that hold me when I am broken, They conquered Death to Bring me Victory" -Redeemer by Nicole C Mullins
#2 Would be Gary, (but don't tell him) He has been a Godly husband to me, one who pushes me to go on when I want to just lay down and stop fighting, one who has held me when my heart broken, who has loved me in spite of my faults, one who has told me how awesome I am when I am doubting myself or my abilities to do things, God truly blessed me when He gave Gary to me. Did I mention....well somethings you just don't mention but, as the saying goes "Holding you, I hold Everything"
3. Cayden, Tre`, Jadyn & Ethan, you all know I will fight for them. I am a calm and pretty passive person until you mess with my kids then I become.....not myself. Each of them has been such a blessing and I pray I am the mother they deserve, that I can pass to them a Love for God, and an understanding of what a relationship with God, and the Holy Ghost is. It's not about shouting, screaming or an emotional high.....it's about a Daily walk, it's being fed spiritually by God's word. It's about how you LIVE your life, not how many times you speak in tounges or run around the church. A "blessing" is just that, it's "dessert" which is absolutely wonderful but, you can't live on dessert, you need God's word, the preaching of a Godly man who preaches the Bible and not the latest "hot topic" going around, God's word, it is our daily bread. I pray I can instill in them GOOD COMMON SENSE.....of course we still have those teen years coming so that might take a while ;)
"when I was a child I spake as a child but, when I became a man I put away childish things"
4.My family.
-My dad has lived beyond the 1-5 years the Dr. gave him, I appreciate every day he has been given, it is a gift to our whole family. I can't say it hasn't affected him It's like those huge scars he has all over his body, a reminder of God's grace knowing that we needed my dad to be here, we weren't ready for him to be taken.
I always wanted to marry somebody like my dad, who never yelled, who had endless Patience, who loved me, Gary is as close to that as I could get lol! And, my dad who always thinks I am beautiful.....ok so he does have VERY thick glasses and bad eye sight but hey who cares....He loves me.
-My mom, who has went through so much because of my dad's sickness, has become the breadwinner for them, who has to somehow make ends meet when there is nothing to pull on, who has loved my dad, who has lived out Till Death to us part, in sickness in health, for better, for worse. I know somedays it's more than she can bear and I wish I could bear it for her or at least help her but, it seems all I can do is Love her and Pray for her, maybe one day I will become what people call "Rich" and I will be able to make her life easier. My mom puts me to shame, she is constantly doing something, I am sitting saying can we quit now I am exhausted, but she keeps on through her exhaustion until every thing is finished.well.......except for those Christmas quilts she gave us 3 years ago.....they are still waiting to be finished HAHAHAHAH!
-My Sister, Thank you Jesus for giving me back my sister, For such a long time I didn't think she would ever be healed. She had always been my Best Friend, she always did everything first cause I was to scared to try things then she would say it's fine Jamie, It doesn't hurt....so then I could do them. We fought awful, but at night, I would beg her to sleep with me cause I was scared and would never admit that to nobody! I would pinch her with my toes or throw my leg on top of her which she HATES.....but she slept with me anyways! And yes I was about 16 at the time.....She would use all my hair stuff, perfume and clothes and I would be so mad, looking back if I could do it over......I would give her anything she wanted, I would be more of a big sister instead of letting her protect me I would try to protect her. Oh, and I wouldn't tie you to the piano bench.....I would let you hang out with me and all my older friends ;) I thank God for the miracle He has done in your life for pulling you from the brink of mental, and emotional Despair to restoring you. For giving me back not only my sister, but my best friend.
-Seth Micheal, how thankful I am for your salvation. You'll never know the nights I couldn't sleep for fear you would die lost, I remember laying awake at night begging God to keep you safe, to save you, to not let you die lost.....and look where you are today! We didn't fight to much cause you knew I would knock you out hehe! In my defense I also took on every boy that tied to bully you.....I remember one time grabbing a boy and swinging him around then letting him fly into a tree cause he was picking on you! Nobody had better mess with you when I was around....I love you and always have in spite of being such a moody big sister ;)
-Jeff Thanks for loving my sister....those are such simple words but, they say a lot to you and me. I love you and I am so thankful God gave you to Holly
Sarah- I love you, your the best thing that could have happened to Seth. Your one of my Best Friends, I love you!!!
-Whit ,Levi and Gavin and Taylor, so thankful for my neices and nephews, the Best friends of my children. I love you all 4!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Boys VS Girls
has yet to sink in for Ethan. The other day one of the kids came telling on Ethan for peeing outside on the sidewalk! I caught up with him, and asked him why did he feel the need ot pee outside when we now have 3 perfectly working and CLEAN toilets...... he said, "well Tre` was in the bathroom and I had to pee" Me, "why didn't you go downstairs to the guest bathroom?!" He, " I forgot about it." This morning as I was leaving to take the kids to school, he walks back to the door so he can walk me to the van, as he takes my hand and kisses it, and my heart melts, He starts giggling and point to the side where there was some bubbles on the concrete and said, " I peed outside." So is it just a guy thing or what?!
Jadyn came home from School last week all "excitedly embarrassed", she said, (after making the boys leave the room) "MOM! Guess what these boys at school told me?! They said Trent told them he was buying me a $1,000 DIAMOND RING FOR CHRISTMAS?!!!" Lucky for Trent's parents and g'ma we don't wear jewelry, right!
I was telling his G'ma about it, she goes to church with us and is a wonderful sweet lady who has been SO good to us, she got a good laugh out of that one! She told me she found a "junk" diamond ring she is putting in his gift for her! She will die over that, I can't wait till she opens it! If you don't remember who Trent is he is the little boy from school who told her she smelled like "marshmallows" , turns out he goes to church with us too ;)
He is going to be a charmer for sure! He is adorable! And Sweet!
I guess I better let you go for now, I have a lot to get done.....we stripped wall paper last night after Gary went to work, really all I have to do is wake up Gary and make sure he gets a lot done! lol! I mean seriously. 4 hrs of sleep is enough, right? :) Don't worry I wouldn't.
Jadyn came home from School last week all "excitedly embarrassed", she said, (after making the boys leave the room) "MOM! Guess what these boys at school told me?! They said Trent told them he was buying me a $1,000 DIAMOND RING FOR CHRISTMAS?!!!" Lucky for Trent's parents and g'ma we don't wear jewelry, right!
I was telling his G'ma about it, she goes to church with us and is a wonderful sweet lady who has been SO good to us, she got a good laugh out of that one! She told me she found a "junk" diamond ring she is putting in his gift for her! She will die over that, I can't wait till she opens it! If you don't remember who Trent is he is the little boy from school who told her she smelled like "marshmallows" , turns out he goes to church with us too ;)
He is going to be a charmer for sure! He is adorable! And Sweet!
I guess I better let you go for now, I have a lot to get done.....we stripped wall paper last night after Gary went to work, really all I have to do is wake up Gary and make sure he gets a lot done! lol! I mean seriously. 4 hrs of sleep is enough, right? :) Don't worry I wouldn't.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Angela
For my cousin Angela, I have been praying for you off and on but tonight I feel like this came to me from nowhere, I wasn't even thinking of you but, suddenly I feel such a burden for you that tears are falling, and my heart is hurting for you. I don't know what is going on but I felt like telling you this.
When nothing makes sense in Life, and you feel that the Whole world has left you all alone, that's when God can make Himself known to you the best, it's at the darkest times of Life, we need Him most. If my Life had been beautiful and painless and I had not become so broken, I would have never needed Him, looking back at the mistake I made, the hurst of my life caused by friends, the hurt caused by people I respected and trusted, the lies that was told about me that cause others to shun me to this very day, some when I was a child/teen, some since I have become an adult, I know those events left scars, but, I also know they made me a stronger and a better person.
Most of all, I found that the God my parents taught me about for my whole Life, He really does exist and He had never left me, he had never stopped loving me....This Summer I remember asking Him, "How could you love me, I am so broken, so broken I fear I will never be whole again, I am such a mess how could you love me", and I felt His reply, " I love EVERY BROKEN PIECE of you" Sometimes Life can leave us Broken, but just remember, God loves every broken piece of you, and He can make you whole again.
You are a beautiful person, a person with a great capacity for Love and tenderness for others, a fragile soul with so much potential, I pray that you let God heal your broken heart as only He can. It won't happen overnight, it's more like a gentle breeze that becomes a mighty wind....and you realize, Your still standing, and your stronger. You'll see the scars but the wound will be healed. I am praying for you, and I LOVE YOU! Most of all, God Loves you, He has always been what you have been searching for.
Jesus, Is my high tower
a light in a dark hour
Without Him, I could not see
He is closer than a brother
Above Him there's no other
Without Him, Where would I be
Oh Jesus, What a friend is He
Cho.
He is the Rock upon which I stand
He is present help in time of need
When this whole world has left me all alone
I can feel Him walking right by me
When Everyone walks out, That's when He walks in
Proven once again that He's my dearest Friend
And he Promised He would go with me always
Even to the end
Just as long as this world stands
He promised he would hold my hand
so I'll never walk alone
He said, He would go with me always through good time and through bad days
He will be my Friend and Guide
Oh, Jesus, Your the Best Friend in my Life
When nothing makes sense in Life, and you feel that the Whole world has left you all alone, that's when God can make Himself known to you the best, it's at the darkest times of Life, we need Him most. If my Life had been beautiful and painless and I had not become so broken, I would have never needed Him, looking back at the mistake I made, the hurst of my life caused by friends, the hurt caused by people I respected and trusted, the lies that was told about me that cause others to shun me to this very day, some when I was a child/teen, some since I have become an adult, I know those events left scars, but, I also know they made me a stronger and a better person.
Most of all, I found that the God my parents taught me about for my whole Life, He really does exist and He had never left me, he had never stopped loving me....This Summer I remember asking Him, "How could you love me, I am so broken, so broken I fear I will never be whole again, I am such a mess how could you love me", and I felt His reply, " I love EVERY BROKEN PIECE of you" Sometimes Life can leave us Broken, but just remember, God loves every broken piece of you, and He can make you whole again.
You are a beautiful person, a person with a great capacity for Love and tenderness for others, a fragile soul with so much potential, I pray that you let God heal your broken heart as only He can. It won't happen overnight, it's more like a gentle breeze that becomes a mighty wind....and you realize, Your still standing, and your stronger. You'll see the scars but the wound will be healed. I am praying for you, and I LOVE YOU! Most of all, God Loves you, He has always been what you have been searching for.
Jesus, Is my high tower
a light in a dark hour
Without Him, I could not see
He is closer than a brother
Above Him there's no other
Without Him, Where would I be
Oh Jesus, What a friend is He
Cho.
He is the Rock upon which I stand
He is present help in time of need
When this whole world has left me all alone
I can feel Him walking right by me
When Everyone walks out, That's when He walks in
Proven once again that He's my dearest Friend
And he Promised He would go with me always
Even to the end
Just as long as this world stands
He promised he would hold my hand
so I'll never walk alone
He said, He would go with me always through good time and through bad days
He will be my Friend and Guide
Oh, Jesus, Your the Best Friend in my Life
"Just Saying"
So as I am sure you all realize Life around here has been more than a little busy, not complaining though, it's good to be busy. The other day I was vacuuming the house and I was smiling Ethan said "Mom, Why are you so happy?" I said, "Because Ethan! I am vacuuming my OWN house!!!" He looked at me really odd so I tried to explain just how thankful I was to have my own house to clean, he still wasn't convinced though, he gave me "the look" and replied, "Mom....you're weird!"
We had Phillips family Christmas here at our house this year. That was nice, we even had the Comcast guy for supper, Gary had offered him something to eat and he took him up on it. When I fixed his plate I told him, it was ready and he could eat wherever he wanted, or if he was uncomfortable eating here at the house he could take it with him, he was pretty young and there was a lot of us here, he looked at me and said, "Well it all is kinda uncomfortable to me, I am not used to any Hospitality!"
He and Gary were making conversation and and one of the questions the guy asked Gary was, so when did you graduate, to which the guy replied, "That was the year I was born!" hahaha
I have taken some pics of the inside of the house, but I almost hate to post them without the "after" pics! I can see potential and I am constantly dreaming, but I know everybody can't see more than what is in front of them. Lots of people can't visualize changes without them being made. It's a nice feeling though...to be able to dream again.
Last night at church, Paul Blanton was there, he sang "What A Friend", I have to say nobody sings it like him.It was awesome, and I was blessed in listening.
We had Phillips family Christmas here at our house this year. That was nice, we even had the Comcast guy for supper, Gary had offered him something to eat and he took him up on it. When I fixed his plate I told him, it was ready and he could eat wherever he wanted, or if he was uncomfortable eating here at the house he could take it with him, he was pretty young and there was a lot of us here, he looked at me and said, "Well it all is kinda uncomfortable to me, I am not used to any Hospitality!"
He and Gary were making conversation and and one of the questions the guy asked Gary was, so when did you graduate, to which the guy replied, "That was the year I was born!" hahaha
I have taken some pics of the inside of the house, but I almost hate to post them without the "after" pics! I can see potential and I am constantly dreaming, but I know everybody can't see more than what is in front of them. Lots of people can't visualize changes without them being made. It's a nice feeling though...to be able to dream again.
Last night at church, Paul Blanton was there, he sang "What A Friend", I have to say nobody sings it like him.It was awesome, and I was blessed in listening.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Love
Love is such a treasure, something you can't measure
Sometimes your not even aware it's there
Until you feel nobody cares
Then all the sudden Love starts to rain, little sprinkles at first
Until it's so much your heart can't contain
All the prayers you thought went unheard,
you humbly realize God never missed a word
The darkness that was closing in
is chased away by Love shown from a friend
The fears you had, are gone. The burden you carried is
made lighter because, the Love of another.
Yeah so I am not a poet and should probably stick to singing.......lol but, this past week has taught me a lot about love and friendship and even Christian charity. I am amazed at the kindness that has been shown to us. The gifts for our new house, the money, the gift cards, the help cleaning, the amazing things you all brought to us....has totally left me feeling so, I don't know what the proper word would be, vulnerable, humbled, loved, shocked, amazed.....nobody has ever done anything like this before for our family, once again I am left in tears, they are Tears of Joy.
I am pretty good at hiding my feelings when I am going through dark times but, I discovered this week that when it comes to the good things I can't keep that in, I feel as if my heart is overflowing.
So if you don't want me to cry on you and you plan on doing something for me, you better just drop it off and run cause if one more person does one more wonderfully nice thing for me I just might start sobbing on you! bahaha! I don't know if Thank-You covers all the gratitude but it's the only words that I know. From the bottom of my heart, Thank-You, You have no idea what your kindness has meant to our family.
jamie
Sometimes your not even aware it's there
Until you feel nobody cares
Then all the sudden Love starts to rain, little sprinkles at first
Until it's so much your heart can't contain
All the prayers you thought went unheard,
you humbly realize God never missed a word
The darkness that was closing in
is chased away by Love shown from a friend
The fears you had, are gone. The burden you carried is
made lighter because, the Love of another.
Yeah so I am not a poet and should probably stick to singing.......lol but, this past week has taught me a lot about love and friendship and even Christian charity. I am amazed at the kindness that has been shown to us. The gifts for our new house, the money, the gift cards, the help cleaning, the amazing things you all brought to us....has totally left me feeling so, I don't know what the proper word would be, vulnerable, humbled, loved, shocked, amazed.....nobody has ever done anything like this before for our family, once again I am left in tears, they are Tears of Joy.
I am pretty good at hiding my feelings when I am going through dark times but, I discovered this week that when it comes to the good things I can't keep that in, I feel as if my heart is overflowing.
So if you don't want me to cry on you and you plan on doing something for me, you better just drop it off and run cause if one more person does one more wonderfully nice thing for me I just might start sobbing on you! bahaha! I don't know if Thank-You covers all the gratitude but it's the only words that I know. From the bottom of my heart, Thank-You, You have no idea what your kindness has meant to our family.
jamie
Monday, December 5, 2011
MRI Results
Hey I need to let you know what they found on the MRI before I get to busy PACKING!!!!! lol!
I have two herniated disks in my spine, one at the base of my neck, and another mid chest level. This is the cause of the leg numbness and weakness I have been having, also why I can't turn my neck most days. Also the cause of my migraines lately....so if you all don't mind just say another prayer for me cause it really limits what I am able to do with moving and cleaning and painting......it's going to be hard cause I want to do it all... TODAY! So just pray nothing God gives me strength in my body!When it gets bad I am in bed and not able to do anything.
Dr. Jerrells is treating me with 5 days of steroids to try to reduce the inflammation from there I am not sure what happens,I know Sat it was really bad, so much that I was throwing up and in bed till 12:40, then it finally eased up enough that I could get going. Seems anything irritates it, from walking, lifting, anything that causes me to pull or lift any weight. So just pray for me this week ;)
Thanks for the concern!
I have two herniated disks in my spine, one at the base of my neck, and another mid chest level. This is the cause of the leg numbness and weakness I have been having, also why I can't turn my neck most days. Also the cause of my migraines lately....so if you all don't mind just say another prayer for me cause it really limits what I am able to do with moving and cleaning and painting......it's going to be hard cause I want to do it all... TODAY! So just pray nothing God gives me strength in my body!When it gets bad I am in bed and not able to do anything.
Dr. Jerrells is treating me with 5 days of steroids to try to reduce the inflammation from there I am not sure what happens,I know Sat it was really bad, so much that I was throwing up and in bed till 12:40, then it finally eased up enough that I could get going. Seems anything irritates it, from walking, lifting, anything that causes me to pull or lift any weight. So just pray for me this week ;)
Thanks for the concern!
Answered Prayer
So I told you all I would try to blog about how God answered our prayer so here it is.
As our family has grown from the two of us to the 6 of us, our houses have gotten smaller....and smaller. Gary's paychecks have been shrinking as well.......why couldn't my weight follow this trend...anyways, we have prayed for years for a house we could afford that would be big enough for all of us. When you are living in your mother in laws open basement with 6 people and no walls just an open room it can get ....."interesting".... ;) And the kids are growing and getting older and they need PRIVACY! haha! Did I mention they need separation too?! hehe!
So, I know several people have prayed with us and for us, and I can't tell you how much that means. There are some of our family who has just give us money here and there, even when they didn't have it to give themselves, church people who would just walk up and hand us money and say the Lord laid us on their heart, or tell us how much they love us, and welcomed us into our new church, 10th st., or let us know we are missed at Dryden Road....to be honest it is humbling to be in this situation but it has also shown me how much the Lord does care and hear our prayers and it has shown us how much people really do care and love us. I can't thank you enough for all these special displays of Love to our family. sooooooo here is my big news!!!! We got a house!!! do you realize just typing that one sentence I am sitting here crying?
anyways here are some pics for you and some details.....
Details:
Main floor
Master Br, Bath, Laundry room right off my room (Laundry shoot from the kids bathroom)
Front room -Wood fireplace
Dinning room- so big my little table would look goofy in it haha!
Kitchen with eating area and built in desk
Family Room with built in book cases and wood beams in the ceiling
1/2 Bath for Guest use
UpStairs:
1 HUGE br with mirror closet doors- Jadyn
1 Big Bedroom (almost as big as Jadyn's) with mirror closet doors-Cayden
1 Big bedroom with the slanted ceilings and a walk in closet with shelves -Tre`
1 smaller bedroom( Still bigger than any bedroom in any other house we have had) with two dormers would be perfect to put a bean bag or plushy chair under and a built in desk area- Ethan's
Basement: it is a full size basement but I don't know what you would put down there besides storage as it isn't finished, there is a canning room for canning storage! and two big wash sinks. just LOT os room but it would need finished to be useable space really....EXCEPT......there is a playroom with a gas fireplace and a bar with a secret entry....of course we don't need a bar but the kids will LOVE playing restaurant or any number of things with that!
So there you have it, there are times when I was calmed and praying about theLord helping us get a house that I would kinda laugh and say
"You know Lord, a 5 br house with a basement would be AWESOME!!! But I don't have to have that to be happy, just whatever you provide will be good enough we can make do as long as we can get our own house for our kids"
I knew God could do that but I have learned He doesn't always give you EXACTLY what you ask for and I was fine with that. But do you realize he not only met our needs he has given me EVERY thing I could have ever wanted in a house...now I'm crying again. Good thing you all can't see me! haha!
For the first time in our lives we have more house than furniture.....I am not complaining I am rejoicing! There is so much house to paint that, I have told the "Mamaw's" that the only thing on the kids Christmas list is PAINT! hahaha! Jadyn's room alone will need 3 gallons!
*That was a joke of course, I am not making the kids get paint for Christmas! haha!*
So I have a lot of work to do cause it needs CLEANING, wall paper stripped and painted, carpets shampooed, walls scrubbed, cabinets cleaned....if you all know me you know I am a little ocd about things like that! lol! But I can't WAIT to get started Tonight!!!!!
I could go on for hours, my heart is so full and I feel like a huge burden has been lifted off my heart that has been there for years but I will stop for now!
As our family has grown from the two of us to the 6 of us, our houses have gotten smaller....and smaller. Gary's paychecks have been shrinking as well.......why couldn't my weight follow this trend...anyways, we have prayed for years for a house we could afford that would be big enough for all of us. When you are living in your mother in laws open basement with 6 people and no walls just an open room it can get ....."interesting".... ;) And the kids are growing and getting older and they need PRIVACY! haha! Did I mention they need separation too?! hehe!
So, I know several people have prayed with us and for us, and I can't tell you how much that means. There are some of our family who has just give us money here and there, even when they didn't have it to give themselves, church people who would just walk up and hand us money and say the Lord laid us on their heart, or tell us how much they love us, and welcomed us into our new church, 10th st., or let us know we are missed at Dryden Road....to be honest it is humbling to be in this situation but it has also shown me how much the Lord does care and hear our prayers and it has shown us how much people really do care and love us. I can't thank you enough for all these special displays of Love to our family. sooooooo here is my big news!!!! We got a house!!! do you realize just typing that one sentence I am sitting here crying?
anyways here are some pics for you and some details.....
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| Front, my phone camera isn't big enough to get the whole front side |
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| Gary's 2 1/2 car garage from the alley |
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| Back of house and yard....& a basketball goal that Tre` has always wanted |
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| The rest of the front ;) |
Details:
Main floor
Master Br, Bath, Laundry room right off my room (Laundry shoot from the kids bathroom)
Front room -Wood fireplace
Dinning room- so big my little table would look goofy in it haha!
Kitchen with eating area and built in desk
Family Room with built in book cases and wood beams in the ceiling
1/2 Bath for Guest use
UpStairs:
1 HUGE br with mirror closet doors- Jadyn
1 Big Bedroom (almost as big as Jadyn's) with mirror closet doors-Cayden
1 Big bedroom with the slanted ceilings and a walk in closet with shelves -Tre`
1 smaller bedroom( Still bigger than any bedroom in any other house we have had) with two dormers would be perfect to put a bean bag or plushy chair under and a built in desk area- Ethan's
Basement: it is a full size basement but I don't know what you would put down there besides storage as it isn't finished, there is a canning room for canning storage! and two big wash sinks. just LOT os room but it would need finished to be useable space really....EXCEPT......there is a playroom with a gas fireplace and a bar with a secret entry....of course we don't need a bar but the kids will LOVE playing restaurant or any number of things with that!
So there you have it, there are times when I was calmed and praying about theLord helping us get a house that I would kinda laugh and say
"You know Lord, a 5 br house with a basement would be AWESOME!!! But I don't have to have that to be happy, just whatever you provide will be good enough we can make do as long as we can get our own house for our kids"
I knew God could do that but I have learned He doesn't always give you EXACTLY what you ask for and I was fine with that. But do you realize he not only met our needs he has given me EVERY thing I could have ever wanted in a house...now I'm crying again. Good thing you all can't see me! haha!
For the first time in our lives we have more house than furniture.....I am not complaining I am rejoicing! There is so much house to paint that, I have told the "Mamaw's" that the only thing on the kids Christmas list is PAINT! hahaha! Jadyn's room alone will need 3 gallons!
*That was a joke of course, I am not making the kids get paint for Christmas! haha!*
So I have a lot of work to do cause it needs CLEANING, wall paper stripped and painted, carpets shampooed, walls scrubbed, cabinets cleaned....if you all know me you know I am a little ocd about things like that! lol! But I can't WAIT to get started Tonight!!!!!
I could go on for hours, my heart is so full and I feel like a huge burden has been lifted off my heart that has been there for years but I will stop for now!
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